Friday, May 22, 2015
Hi. I'm Sinner Saint
Sinner Saint.
I am pushing in Uber the same I am pushing to take a breath after walking too fast to the car. One long breath at a time, but without the wheezing, I think. I 'on know. I simply listen for the beep, arrive, depart, then repeat at each destination. Then check my direct deposit to be in.
So I just sleep in the car now. I saved a bunch of money on my car insurance I need to get a house.
#sinnerSaint #imLesbian #InOurImageLetUsCreate
Monday, January 13, 2014
I AM ASLEEP
I am asleep with my eyes wide awake. In a dream i sleep eyes open. I dip 4 levels in slumber and sneek peeks of all of my life's under. Where eye go we can find below every belt of cosmic dust, dimensions and realms only Yah can flow.
Thursday, November 21, 2013
INSANE YOU MAKE ME CRAZY THATS HOW I FEEL
DJ Hatsim & Staff
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Repositioned
I did not drive off once I stepped into my vehicle. I sat in the car, turned it on, turned up the thermostat, laid my head back, adjusted my duffle bag, and probably sat about an hour without realizing it. I was not happy about my reactions and responses to a person I care for but refuse to bend over for simply because I am in transition from being the old me.
Regardless of these posts I am simply seeking the better me. The best working me, the better financial me, the best psychological me, the better spirited me, I am seeking my best within myself. I have to remain logical at all times and frugal in my word choice as well as partnerships as my time here is limited.
Dhats All
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Where is Mistah Boogii,Sinner Saint, and King Deuce?
Mistah Boogii (M7Bii) is awaiting studio time to record the over due album project which at this time will be self titled. There are so many issues and concerns to speak on and bring a message to that creativity sometimes is lost in the message or the message is lost in the creativity. Boogii has realized to himself he must remain true at the most molecular moment of his existance as well as remain true to his belief of The Most High.
Sinner Saint is currently on an Open Mic Tour across the southwest district and arts district. Not to fret as Sinner Saint is doing double duty and writing a script for an also self titled production.
King Deuce in currently in studio with Boom Bap Nation producing an album project titled .... you guessed it...King Deuce "Reign of The Homegrown"
DJ HATSIM
Stay tuned as I leak a few items from Sinner Saint, Boom Bap Nation, King Deuce, and Mistah Boogii as they all continue to keep true to the heart of what is music, art, and life as we know it.
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Hey Baby
Hey baby
Cute lil baby
My now you grow
How now baby
You and ME baby
talk about your growth
There will be things you are going to see
The light may reveal what it means
Hey baby
beautiful baby
Mind now how you grow
Now wow baby
You and teeth baby
Take a bite of it all but don't chew up the place
Keep your pace and learn with grace
Everything is going to digest one day
Hey baby
God's gifting
Mabey
I believe it to be
The most awesome
Baby
Because you still see
I wish I could hear you baby
what you think
All those jewels from heavens sink
Hey there baby
Keep wandering baby
We are going to need all you see
The life we live has gotten lost in tears
Hey now baby
I hope you can hear
all the truth
Release into the atmosphere
Please now baby
don't be afraid
all I have is All I have made
My mind is up and everyday
I am going to need your grace
Hey there baby
beautiful baby
loving baby
caring baby
giving baby
have fun baby
love you baby
love you baby!
Friday, July 27, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
REST IN LOVE "KUWN DALINI"
ME AND KUWN MET AT "MARS" MUSIC STORE IN NORTH DALLAS OFF OF WALNUT HILL AND CENTRAL EXPRESSWAY AND WE BEEN CONNECTED SINCE THEN. HE WAS LOOKING FOR NEW ARTISTS AND I MYSELF HAD JUST DISBANDED A GROUP WHICH WAS NOT SERIOUS ENOUGH TO MATCH MY MIND.
KUWN SINCE THAT TIME HAD ENLIGHTENED ME OR SHALL I STATE, RE ENLIGHTENED ME, IN THE AREAS OF MY SPIRIT IN WHICH I VISUAL COMPREHENDED BUT PHONETICALLY SLURRED MY EXPRESSION. WE CHOPPED IT UP LIKE BEEF SANDWICHES ALL THE TIME AND BECAUSE OF KUWN, I FOUND SOMETHING IN MY SPIRIT I HAD FORGOTTEN EVEN EXISTED WITHIN ME.
I OWE MY BROTHER MUCH IN REGARDS OF TIME AND RESPECT. I OWE HIM FOR SIMPLY BEING MY BROTHER. MOM AND POP PRIDE ARE MY ADOPTED PARENTS AND I HAVE ONLY 5 SETS OF PARENTS. IF I ACTUALLY IN MY HEART AND SPIRIT VIEW YOU AS MY FLESH AND BLOOD, YOU HAVE IMPACTED MY LIFE TREMENDOUSLY.
I AM NOT GOING TO POST AS IF WE SPOKE EVERY DAY BUT THE DAYS WE DID SPEAK IT WAS ALWAYS THE SAME IMPACT.
KUWN IF YOU DID NOT KNOW THIS WHAT SO EVER HAD A FEW CONCERNS REGARDING HIS SAFETY, AND THERE WERE A FEW TIMES I WAS ABLE TO SPEAK ON HIS CONCERN AND CONSULT HOW TO BRING A RESOLUTION TO THE CONCERN. I SAY THIS TO REMIND US ALL THAT REGARDLESS OF THE VIEW OR VANTAGE POINT, THERE IS ALWAYS A CONCERN FOR SAFETY. THE QUESTION I POSE EVEN TO MYSELF IS WHEN DO I SUBMIT MY REGARD FOR SAFETY?
IF YOU ALL ARE STILL AFRAID TO STAND OUT AND STAND UP AND STAND FOR THAT WHICH BRINGS OUT THE GLORY OF THE MOST HIGH THEN YOU MY LOVED ONE STILL ARE NOT FREE REGARDLESS OF YOUR ATTEMPT TO BELIEVE SO. I ACKNOWLEDGE MY LIBERTIES THROUGH MY DIVINITY AND NOTHING ELSE. WHEN IT IS THE MOST HIGH WHO COMMANDS, CONTROLS, CREATES, CONSULTS, CONSOLES, CONTRIBUTES, AND COMPLETES ALL THAT IS WITHIN MY CIRCLE OF LIFE, WHAT ELSE OR WHERE ELSE SHOULD MY COMPLETE DEVOTION REMAIN OR RELY UPON?
KUWN KNEW THIS AND WAS ABLE TO WALK HIGHER WITHIN HIMSELF FOR THE PAST 7 YEARS. I'VE KNOW KUWN ABOUT 15 TO 16 YEARS. HE ALWAYS SENT REGARDS TO ME AND MY SIDE OF FAMILY AND HE NEVER ONCE MADE ME FEEL IN ADEQUATE ABOUT BEING "MISTAH BOOGII". I WILL ALWAYS MISS THE KUWNDALINI IN US ALL!
WADU
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Sinner Saint
Currently I am posted up in a coffee shop having me a hottie. She is steaming too! I see that she may be a little too hot and I should be patient to allow her time to cool off a little, otherwise I may burn my tongue trying to take me a drink of this fine beverage. Holding her in my hand is warm and feels oh so good! What I am missing right now is my drink. The casual motion often taken for granted as automatic, when in fact it takes time and preparation to have a sip.
Where am I going with this? Absolutely no where as I lost all train of thought the very moment I started writing. What was supposed to happen was inspiration to get me going and start off with a witty statement about how effed up it is in my life right now. I mean I'm not diagnosed with a terminal illness, or completely homeless right now, but I can't pay my bills which at my age is the illness!
I have worked so many jobs and been through so many interviews and workshops that I cannot stand the words "be seated." I stand up everywhere now. In my mind it makes me look like I was next in line. I stand up to take a dump, I'm so pissed off right now.
The other day at a Japanese restaurant I got kicked out because I wouldnt sit on the floor. I thought I was hardcore too, until Yamaku came out with this big ass sword! I pretended I had to take a call and walked outside, trying to save face. I stole someone's phone because I don't have one. I can't pay the bill remember. I got no money.
Here's how effed up I am. I tried to teach myself music production from scratch. You know T-Pain it, Teddy Riley, Timbaland, Dr. Dre, Dark Child my situation. I figured if I can learn the process, then learn the game of how to get paid from making 1 song, that I could put all of my pain and anger, love and hurt, joy and peace into one song and become an overnight sensation for atleast 1 week worth of time and feed my family the rest of my life. It's what i thought. Well, apparently there is more to making music than knowing how to make music. What I did not take into consideration is that people aren't making their own music and steal your music and put their name on it.
No one told me this. Well, before i insenuate i made a hit song you've heard before, let me start here. The Studio is a club. I have never seen so many women in one small area before in my life. The cover charge is more and billed hourly and the producer smokes more weed than the rappers. The sound engineer is an alcoholic with terets syndrome and the average artist can't even sing or rap. When you go to the studio from the hood don't expect Quincy Jones like work ethic because people in the hood go to the studio for the appearance of doing something.
But before I get into what it's like in a studio session, let me take it back to learning what it takes to make a track or beats. I had no equipment. I spent all my downtime hanging out in music stores and asking questions that demonstrated the equipment to see what device I can use to create my million dollar song. I spent so much time in these stores that they would call the other stores to warn that I was headed their way once I get kicked out or run off. The funny part is I learned how to make a basic beat on their equipment but didn't know enough to make it pop. In my head I hear the song as it needs to be heard for me to have success and collect my million dollars. What you heard in the store however was the same keys being played over and over again with different beats under them. I CAN'T PLAY AN INSTRUMENT WHICH SUCKS ASS LIKE DIRTY ROCKS AND DONKEY DICKS.
But before I get into critique's of my ups and downs in music creation let's start with me learning or teaching myself how to sing. I would as a youngster when no one was home try to sing every song that I liked. What I learned in this process is that in the studio they do things to make people sound good or hit keys because for the life of me I couldn't figure out how some people did it. I tried exercises, hot tea and lemon, no pop, warm water, and relaxation techniques to calm my vocal chords and do my pretty bird. Well, needless to say I learned it's better to whisper your song than try to scream your way through it.
But before I get into how do I sing, let's go back to my first time on stage and was scared to death. I was in kindergarden. The teacher made us decorate these paper bags with paint and cut outs of ears. We cut eye holes in them and everything. Well this entire time apparently I did not get the memo that we are going to perform a song wearing these masks. One day I get to school at night and the whole kindergarden class is backstage getting ready. We are all lined up and the curtain is unveiled. I'm in the back but looking out into the audience. In my mind everybody is staring at me.I'm scared shitless. I start crying and keep crying during the entire song. I'm all off key, off tempo and I done abandoned the whole routine because all I want to know is what did I do to make everybody stare at me.
MY POINT IS THIS
There is always going to be something effed up about what you choose to do. You can either cry about it and let it destroy your learning experience, or you can learn that you were given multiple opportunities in life to redeem yourself and make better choices. Preparation is part of it but not all of it. There are just some things you are never going to be prepared for.
Men. Do you really think you are prepared to witnesses "child birth?" No! Ladies? Do you think you are really prepared to handle a man's fetish and fantasy about rubbing you down in body oil and then washing it off again, just to cover you in green jello and whip cream as he whispers to you in a pirate voice saying things such as "Argh" or "Ahoy Matey?" Well, if you are prepared for that then you are a bonified freak, because I don't know anybody who could be prepared for some real life shizzle like that. My point is there are just certain things about everything you can only react to in your best attempt to respond in an adequate and grown up fashion or manner.
Case in point. I was taught that we only need love when having a relationship and that loooooove, is all it takes. What I was not advised of is that Loooooove has guidelines and parameters of things like giving up your identity as a man, your life, your common sense, your humor, your taste, your dreams, your money, your friends, your way of doing things, so that you won't be alone and have someone tell you they love you on your birthday, valentines day, and your anniversary. Also, I was unaware that once you fall in love that you give up sex after the 32 kuffs have been met.
32 kuffs? That's when you have had sexual relations 32 times, the quota has been met and is supposed to last you a lifetime or at the least the rest of your life. Then once the quota is met you are only allowed to have sex once out of the three options mentioned earlier.
Well, that's my time. Mabey you learned something mabey I taught nothing. All I know is when I make this one song and get it heard I will no longer have to worry about where I am going to sleep, eat, live, breathe, what I am going to drive, car note, mortgage, insurance, because I will have all the love in the world and that is going to carry me far enough!
SINNER SAINT
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
"If You Love Me..." written by Charles D. Williams of B.M.I. Publishing Group
If you love me...
If you love me
Then you'll love me
And if you love me
Then just love me
But if you love me
Then you love me
Go ahead
Im saying...
If you love me
Truly love me
There is no
Delaying it
When you love me
Truly love me
There is no
Abstaining it
If you love me
You will love me
Is all
Im saying
If you love me
You do love me
Its all
Im saying
If you love me
Then you will love me
You cant love me
Because you dont love me
If you love me
Then you love me
My heart needs breaking
Since you loved me
You just love me
Pray I can take it
Because you loved me
Truly loved me
True love no one else
Can fake it
If you love me
Then you love
If you loved me
Then you loved me
If you love me
Then you'll love
If you love me
Truly do love me
You will love me
Always love me
My heart
cant take this
You cant love me
Because you dont love me
It pains me to know
You keep faking
If you love me
Then please love me
My heart
needs breaking
You cant love me
Because you cant love me
Go ahead please say it...
If you love me
Then still love me
My heart
Is aching
If you loved me
Then please show me
My heart
Needs breaking...